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“...the only contact I was to have was a letter once a year and no photographs and I wasn’t allowed any other contact with her. And I was gutted isn’t quite the word I would use,”
“I sat outside the hospital for twenty four hours hoping to catch his parents walking in and out. But of course I wouldn’t know who they were”
“I actually went insane when I gave him up because I do love him so much”
“I actually went insane when I gave him up because I do love him so much”
“...it came to a point that I knew that I just had to keep going forward and I had to get on with my life and it was either a case of moving forward,”
“I have letter contact once a year and this contact is via the post adoption box”
“...she’s there somewhere. I know she’s alive but she’s with another family.”
“my daughter wouldn’t stop crying and there was nothing I could do that would appease her and I threw her on to the bed, not very hard and slapped her accros her stomach, both which I shouldn’t have done and I felt really really bad”
“At the end of this visit I remember picking my daughter up, giving her a massive hug and I was crying, in fact crying isn’t the word I would use, I was sobbing and she just looked at me and she just threw her arms around me and hugged me ”
“...and that was when I knew that was… my decision would be final, and I would be giving him up for adoption”
“Just the wondering, the wondering if I’d passed him in the street, or, had he gone to the same school as my son? Or…Just not knowing.”
“ I was never ashamed of him… I didn’t tell everybody because there is a stigma out there, and you do get frowned upon”
“And I used to watch all the programmes on telly where they used to reunite people. Hoping, and, you know, I wanted it to be me.”
“Well, I thanked her for doing a job that I couldn’t do. She thanked me for giving her a child that she couldn’t have”